9th of January!

2005, a day I never forget!
It was the day of my mother departing to the 'other side' as one can say in nice covered up words ;-)
This year, like last year, my brother and sister, and me, remembered that occasion together! How> you might ask yourself, while being so far apart from each other... because they were not here with me in Patong Phuket. Simply: we send simultaniously sms to each other at the exact time when my mother passed away, 5.58 pm, or in Thai time 11.58 pm! And we bring out a toast to her same time.I can assure you, it makes one feel very close to once brother and sister, even while 10.000 km apart!!
This year I made my toast in a very unusual way, but very symbolically in the Thai way: by letting up in the air a hot air lampoon, on which I had written a message to my mother.
I did that at he exact time, and while letting the lampoon go and watch it go up in the night air at the Beach of Patong, it went directly to the almost full moon, my phone gave sounds of coming in sms... from my brother and sister! They must have received mine at around the same time.
It was, like last year, highly emotional for me and though Kik joined me at the beach for this little personal ceremony, one can not help feel alone for a moment, very alone... kowing the one and only unconditional love one has in once live was again gone forever.... but same time I felt joy, because my Mom felt so near, so close..........

I hope one year we might exprience this ritual together.
So this year my glass was not a real glass with a drink in it, but this lampoon. The drink and additional extra toast I made afterwards when I returned with Kik at my bar.......
and then we started celebrating Life again, like last year :-)
And the year before, directly after my mothers death and again after her funeral on the 16th.......... a tradition I cherish and hope the three of us can enjoy doing it for a long time. And maybe one day again we can do it together again as well ;-)